People call me Dazzle. I'm 19. I'm studying law at uni. I want to quit drugs, have done for a while, never manage to stay off for more than a month or so as the prospect of being sober for life terrifies me. However, I am totally aware of the damage drugs do and experts tell me I'll be a much happier, healthier, better person off drugs.
So I'm going to do an experiment. I'm going to stay sober for a year. This means abstaining from:
- Alcohol
- Ganja
- Pills
- MDMA
- All legals
- Acid
- K
I reckon I can do this for a year on the premise that it's a fixed amount of time and I can tell my stubborn brain that if I still need drugs to cope with reality after a year without them then I may as well just carry on down that path. But I'm hoping that in a year all the cravings will have gone, I'll feel physically and mentally better, my weight will be normal, I'll be achieving more, I'll be happy. And then I'll be able to accept that I can do without drugs for life.
I'm going to use this blog to record how I'm feeling and think about why I want drugs when I'm craving as a sort of distraction. Also it should help to keep things in perspective as addicts tend to skew reality when they want drugs. I want to remember the good and the bad sides and keep them in proportion.
